Thursday, July 27, 2006
27/07/06, Thursday- Perhap perhaps perhaps -
I said
Today I have a qurral with one of my besties, J. It should be a misunderstanding I think....
I am really upset about this misunderstanding. I feel so annoying as I don't know how to resolve it and also worrying at the same that this misunderstanding leave a deep scar.
okok.. see on one side, I dont think Im wrong and so I didn't want to apologize. On the other side, Im thinking maybe I have some misunderstanding with her. I wanted so much to clarify with her so I won't be feeling so irony. I did try to talk to her but we just dont meet ya? I heard that she tried to talk to me but I didn't see her sign.
That's how fate toyed us around~
After trying many attempts of failures ( talk to J ), I started to get mixed feeling of impatient, frustrated, upset. It will be super difficult for me to open my mouth to speak again and crawl out of my enclosed-saddistic-mind.Beside that, I also had some unwarp problems clouding my mind nowadays. This explain why I cried ;-( So guys stopped asking me why Im crying.
for now, I decided to put aside my pride or perhap ego away because I really dont wanna to see the ending of our 5-yrs friendship.
Good night