Tuesday, May 16, 2006
16/05/06, Tuesday- Cold war -
Other arguement with my mother.
** communication errors**
can someone please lead me to the brightside
Or someone i can talk to and asked ' is all this my faults '? with tears rolling on my cheek.
Sometimes, i really felt i am the culprit of all unhappiness in my family.
I swear i love them alot whole heartedly but i don't think they will believe.
Honestly, i had a wonderful brother and he is always a very responsible brother. * guess he dote me alot even if he beat me with his strength
I had a everyone-wanted-daddy, he dote me even more than my bro. He is very protective of me. i knew it more than anyone else do. I had a mummy, i really couldn't communicate with her ( maybe because of her i-don't-wana-lost attitude and her exxaggarating mouth ). she cares for me alot i knew it inside.
the thing is she don't know me inside neither outside. I told her ' i love you, no matter how crude i say ' i doubt she rememebered it ( this hurt me alot ).When i asw her crying, conscience gawned on me. I wanted so much to give her a hug and explained why i treating her so rudely but my body just don't listened to my mind. Maybe of stephanie's EGO...
I hate her of relaying on her friends more than me. I not in the position to say this anyway because i am doing that too! I know she is feeling not better than i do.. i know. That's even hurt me more.. anyone tell me what to do???
who will be that someone ( a someone i nv know )
End of the sentence will be : I love my mother alot
.: can i go back to my nursery when she helped to me tie my hair?* sobs....
