Sunday, January 29, 2006
am i such a weakling?yesterday cleaning up my bedroom. i saw those bears and dogs which my ex bought for me. i wanna to hold my tears back but it just runs like tapwater. i still pondering should i keep in a carton or should i even throw it as i don't want those memoery to hunt me every moment. just to remember that he said this to me
: when i am not around, this particular dog will replaced me . yeah finally this day really arrived..
so i stop cleaning everything to prevent me from getting worser. fark~ even when i watching television and how my bro and my future sis-in-law how well they get along really make me feel so horrible inside.
maybe maybe it will take a long time to forget everything that happen in the past year 2005. at first it was really relaxing.. but when times goes back . there was too many things he gave me clothes shoes slipper bag.. yeah.. i wanna to bring it out to the streets and i got to buy everything again. i wanna to throw it away but i don't feel like throwing it away. haiz. what the fark am i talking about. it's so ironic.
